Too hard to handle.

There are many things in this world I can tolerate, from being entirely too stupid, to being too cocky. One of things that I can't tolerate is company over at 7:00am when I get up and get ready for work. That's an instant "I'm mad, I'm not talking to you and I'll slam the door when I leave to drive the point home." This morning was no different.

It was a good day. A day that I could joke with my friends, baby talk all the cute dogs, and just be goofy despite the horrible morning. And I had a thought...

There are 3 things people can't handle:
1) Money
2) Time
3) Truth


Money: I never have -too- much money but when I have extra I spend it, on stupid stuff instead of saving it. Feel free to ask my mother about that. I openly admit, I, Jess, am horrible with money.


Time: Now this can range from too much of it to far to little. Either way, it gets people in to trouble more often than not. I typically get lazy and waste days when I have too much time. And spend the days with too little time trying to make up for my wasted time. This also applies to people going nuts in jail and shanking people because they have too much time. To people who fling themselves into heart attacks for being too busy to have time to just sit and take a deep breath. Time, is not on our sides, as it should be.


Truth: Truth, now there is a subject. People lie, everyone lies, everyone you have ever met, who is old enough to talk has lied. Think about the last time something broke in your house (if you have small kids) and you ask "Now, little Cindy Mae, did you break this lamp?" she is gonna respond with a lie. "No, the dog did.", "No Tony did.", "No it just fell over.". Lying is apart of human nature, it was somewhere ingrained in us, that truth, being honest, fessing up, is a bad thing. It'll get you in trouble, it'll hurt someones feelings, I'm ashamed. Whatever. And when the truth comes out it's always "why would you say something like that?!" or "no, no, that can't be right." Whatever the response is, we are taught to lie, because the truth hurts. It stings, it rips, it burns, it opens our eyes.

I'm not saying that I'm an honest person, as a matter of fact it would be a -lie- for me to say that. But truth be told, I'm a horrible lier anyway, just ask any member of my family, me and lying... not good. But I do it anyway, to coddle, to get out of trouble, to place fault on someone else, to cover up how I really feel because I'm embarrassed or ashamed. I lie. So does everyone you have ever met who can speak. And if you say you don't lie, you my friend are in fact a liar.

Now Jess you're thinking, what brought this on? Well, reader, that isn't your business, and you can deal with it. But I will tell you when I'm bathing dogs, I have two things to think about: how the dog is going to look when it's done, and whatever I want. I'm a thinker, it may not come off that way, but the hamster is always on it's wheel in this head. It'll probably have a heart attack soon, from lack of time and relaxation.

I bid you adieu it's a beautiful day outside and I don't want to waste it.

-J-

Jesus Death Day The Afterlife

After writing my last blog, I thought about all the different kind of things I could write about in this one. I'm not new to the "blogging" world. I've had one since I was a freshman in high school, I've gone through many since then. They've been based on poor choices, boyfriends (the majority of which also bad choices) and this one, I want to be about growing up. And in turn there are gonna be rants, raves, twists and turns, some of which you, the reader, aren't gonna be a fan of.

As I started off my last post, that I'm a horrible spell, have poor diction and I never know what's gonna come out next. This all being true, I must also bring to the table that I have a foul mouth, and more often than not cuss like a sailor. I also strongly believe in respect of other peoples boundaries and feels on my life style. So cussing won't happen much, it'll help me expand my vocabulary i suppose.

My life, isn't bad by any means, it hasn't been since i was i dunno, one. As soon as my family scooped me up from whatever hell i was in and adopted me life has been grand. Granted, if you would have asked me this as a teenager, you would have gotten a totally different story.

Me as a teenager, whoooooo. I was a hand full. More than a hand full i'm sure. I made me parents wait up til all hours, deal with my bad attitude, my friends bad attitude, and everything else. I guess you could say as a teenager i was very strong willed to be a rebel, nothing like the rest of my family. I still have that but my choices are much better so to speak. I kicked the drugs, and now I drink. Not often, and not a lot. I openly talk to my mom about it, who is my best friend, as cheesy as that is, she has been my rock and my savior. I'm getting off track, me as a teenager, a mess, a huge school skippin, pot smokin, pill poppin mess. I'm surprised i'm still alive, glad, but surprised.

Whoa, look at the time, should get ready for my Jesus Death Day lunch with the parents. I'm sorry Easter lunch with my parents. I suppose I'll give to you in more detail my views on religion later, should be interesting.

Holla. (I'm secretly negro inside, where it's dark.:) )

-J-

(photo by me, Persey Priest Lake 2007)

The Low Down.

Basically, in a nutshell, I'm a horrible speller, have poor diction and I'm not sure what is gonna come out from one sentence to the next.

One of my older brothers has a blog here, he has a wonderful family who lives states away. Needless to say we don't have the time or the ability to sit around and chit chat for hours. Perhaps this will be the way to keep caught up with each others lives.

Nothing entirely to interesting about me, I'm 24 (or 23 again as I like to call it), work with dogs, yeah okay, i bathe them. But, I love animals and you can't get much better than Safari Pet Resort in Murfreesboro. I live with my baby boy Jasta, boyfriend Billie to much concern and dismay of my family. But we have a history stretching over 4 years, and I love him, a lot. I'd be lying to say that we haven't been throwing the idea of marriage around. It makes me really excited, the idea of being married, to Billie.

I suppose this is it for now, tomorrow is Easter and I plan on eating with my rents... Ma and Pa Dukes. :) And I haven't exactly been around for them lately.

-J-