alone in a bunker

ever just have a great day one day, then the day after you feel like all life has been squeezed out of you like an orange into orange juice?

i had a great day yesterday, i did creative things, i took pictures for the first time in forever, granted they aren't artist, or whatever but i made something. and today, it seems like creativity was just drained. no need or want to write or create. or do anything for that matter, just lay in bed and watch season 3 of Six Feet Under, and between discs check my myspace for signs of life from others, that might have to do with mine. an email, a comment, a new blog something that had to do with someone else so i could get out of my head. or maybe, perhaps, possibly to get into my head.

i didnt want to do the people contact thing very much, so i hung with kipp, and cory (staci as you will most likely hear me refer to him as) and had a decent day with that. he dropped me off and i've been in this room locked up with my six feet under. I didnt go to my meeting cause i just wanted to stay in bed. i have a minor headache but nothing that would stop me from doing whatever before. but today, today was different. i just wanted to sleep, and when i would try it never came, but when i would lay down on kipps bed waiting for him to get out of the shower and take me home, it came and apparently it came hard, cause when i finally woke up kipp and staci were standing over me talking about how they think i could sleep through anything. staci said when i awoke the he had been playing loud music and drumming to it, not knowing i was asleep and i never heard one beat. i laughed and this, and told them that as a kid, we learned how to sleep hard in the car on long road trips due to dads humming. that's the only thing i can think of as to why i sleep so hard.

i'm babysitting tomorrow for a couple who is moving. her name is kiari and she's one and smily and so happy. i'm excited. she loves me or at least i hope she does or it's gonna be a loooooooooooong day.

anyway i guess i'll try to get some sleep, i just wanted to write a little something i suppose... time for another disc of sfu season 3!!