What if.....

That's what my eyes are looking like right now, I cannot sleep. I've laid here for hours trying to get some sleep. It's just not happening. My sponsor said this would happen, during "post acute withdrawal" which is pretty much the fancy term for detox. I've pretty much been detoxing for about 3 days, which is odd cause it should have happened a lot earlier, but my body is slow.

Anyway, I was smoking and I had a thought, what if everyone, on the face of the earth said exactly what they think all the time. I mean true 100% honesty. I wonder if our world would shatter and break. Or if it would be more peaceful.

Truth hurts sometimes, it hurts when you hear it, it hurts when you have to say it, it hurts the most when you have to say it to yourself.

Kipp (which is a guy I'm on and off dating i suppose) took me out to eat this morning at Cracker Barrel which is our Sunday morning thing. Anyway, there was a picture of a high school class from Maine dated 1926. There looked like 100 kids there maybe more maybe less. And I looked across the table and asked Kipp very seriously "How many of those people do you think died in wars?". The look on his face was shocked then very, i'm not sure intrigued for lack of a better word. And he asked me to repeat myself, which i did, twice really. And once he wrapped his head around that question, he looked up at me from his blueberry pancakes and said, "only you would ask that question, because only you would be honest enough with yourself to ask yourself that question first.". And I did ask myself, how many of them are dead now because of some pissing contest in between countries and races.

I just wonder, if everyone really said what they thought, what they meant honestly 100% of the time, what the world would be like. I guess it's like flipping a coin, heads it bad, tails it's good.


Now i'm gonna leave you with a funny something...

As i lay me down to sleep (or try)
I pray thee lord my soul to keep
and if i die before i wake
i pray the lord my soul to take
and if he don't, i don't care
i can see your underwear.


-Sweet J-